I had a dream last night that has changed the way I think. I'm usually thinking about guys and wishing I could find a good one, but the truth is, I don't need a guy in my life right now. Guys have caused problems for me and I need to get beack to the way I was. So from today on (well atleast til im done with school) I am gonna make sure I don't put any guy ahead of school or family or friends. I want to be a Pediatric Nurse and graduate early and I can't do that if I keep getting caught up with guys. I'm not saying im not gonna have a boyfriend, im just saying im gonna keep my priorities straight, and definetly not get caught up with any guy that is against the law. I dont even know what I was thinking. All I can say is im young and of course im gonna make some stupid decisions, but everybody does so.....
So I cleaned my room and bathroom last night and I feel so much better..I feel so clean and organized! That might sound weird but im weird so it doesnt matter! I also cleaned cause my brother is gonna be moving back in and to tell the truth..I'm kinda happy hes moving back. I miss my brother. He was kinda my support system when I had problems with my family cause he had already been through it, and I miss him. Yes! I admit it, I MISS MY BROTHER!
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Monday, July 14, 2008
Tired of Everything
So...I really hate how people will say one thing to you and then turn around and say something totally different to someone else, making you look stupid. People just need to grow up and act their age not their shoe size!
I will admit I made a big mistake...I believed a stupid guy cause I kinda sort of thought I liked him, I told people, who I thought were my friends, about it and they went and told people, and it got around and now I look like a whore, But the biggest mistake was lying to my family about it! And they are smart and they know something was fishy about it and now they don't treat me the same. My uncle won't look or talk to me, and that KILLS me! I love my uncle more than anybody in the world and my aunt is right behind him and it kills me that I was stupid enough to lie to them and now I don't know how to tell them the truth..but me and that person have nothing to do with each other and never will. I have a big future planned ahead of me and I'm not gonna do anything to ruin it from now on!
And I just pray to God that my family will forgive me and that we can get back to the way we were before all this happened...and I pray that God will forgive me and that eventually we can all look past all this and be a loving family again!
I will admit I made a big mistake...I believed a stupid guy cause I kinda sort of thought I liked him, I told people, who I thought were my friends, about it and they went and told people, and it got around and now I look like a whore, But the biggest mistake was lying to my family about it! And they are smart and they know something was fishy about it and now they don't treat me the same. My uncle won't look or talk to me, and that KILLS me! I love my uncle more than anybody in the world and my aunt is right behind him and it kills me that I was stupid enough to lie to them and now I don't know how to tell them the truth..but me and that person have nothing to do with each other and never will. I have a big future planned ahead of me and I'm not gonna do anything to ruin it from now on!
And I just pray to God that my family will forgive me and that we can get back to the way we were before all this happened...and I pray that God will forgive me and that eventually we can all look past all this and be a loving family again!
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